Still withholding

Numerous dates with 2 very different, yet potential guys. I forgot how exhausting dating can be, learning about someone takes a lot of work on both parts and its a new experience for me. After being with the same person for almost 2 years I realize now how much I learned in those two short years about this person. Starting all over again is something I never intended to do. This afternoon I had a very enchanting date. We played a round of mini golf, went to lunch, and walked around the park and the mall. As the afternoon went on I became more comfortable and absolutely smitten with this guy. He is everything I would ever want in someone. I felt so normal that I forgot for a small second that hey! My uterus is still missing and I a with holding some very important information. We were getting ready to leave one another ( after a 5 hr date I still wanted him more, wanted to learn everything I could about him) We somehow got on the wagon of children and he seemed very sympathetic to infertility and shared his experiences in dealing with friends and miscarriages. I just sat there thinking Oh, boy do I know. Yet, witholding, because I felt it still wasnt time yet. We kissed, it was quite magical if I do say so myself. aaand I am still here holding deep inside me this secret, because he loves kids and very much wants his own someday.. and while I feel the same way, I am still not normal. Our next date just may be the day that I let it all out.. if only telling him were an easier task that I didn't dread so much.