quite a scare

This week has been a very interesting week. Words cannot describe the emotional scare that I experienced.


Since the hysterectomy I have felt amazingly great.

no pain.

no signs of remission being over.

Last week this all changed. I began experiencing an all too familiar pain.

yes, pelvic pain.

At first I didn't want to believe it, I thought that if I just took some ibuprofen it would disappear. This was not the case though. It began to become persistant. I even had pain the entire day while teaching my kiddos. It was a scary thought, yet sadly reality.
There were so many thoughts going through my head. First and foremost I was concerned for my new relationship. the boy knows me as a healthy girl who had endometriosis, but is now in a remission stage. I was scared to know how he would feel about this possible kink in our relationship. I gave him an 'out' because I didn't want to give my heart out and have yet another relationship fail because of endometriosis. Given the track record you can see why my guard is up.
The boy was very supportive and said that he was willing to take the risk and see what happend. He was so confident that maybe it wasn't the endometriosis but something else. Everyone had confidence but myself. I knew deep in my heart that something was not right.

I phoned my doctor with my concerns and scheduled an appointment for the next day. I saw my doctor on Friday. He did a pelvic exam and concluded that I have inflammed tissue from an upper respiratory infection as well as sore pelvic muscles from too much activity. No endo was present ( or so he could tell via pelvic exam) .

This whole ordeal was really an eye opener for me. I realized that I was becoming to comfortable in my own skin so to speak. I can't just treat my body as one that is healthy because I will never just be an ordinary girl.

I am glad that the outcome of this ordeal was a positive one. I am trying to remain positive and keep my chin up.. I am also trying not to jump to conclusions when a simple ache and pain comes my way.