It's still hard to believe that 8 months ago I had surgery. Time sure does fly by.
My first christmas post TAH has come and gone, it was everything and nothing like I expected it to be; after suffering for so long and being in so much pain for the holidays, it was so nice to not have the added stress of endometriosis around this holiday.
I really tried to keep a tough front for everyone and not be so emotional about it all, it's very hard to do. I am so blessed to be where I am at right at this moment in my life. I really shouldn't complain, because I have gotten a second chance at life and I am forever grateful. Sometimes I stop and think about it and I cry; cry tears of joy and sadness for what I have lost in the process of all this. Its a tough situation; not as easy as people seem to think. My life is back, yet I am left infertile.
Not a day goes by that I don't wonder what my life will be like in 5years. I know that I will be married to the love of my life, but I wonder if we will have a baby around for the holidays.
Will we ever be parents?
If so, how will it happen?
My mind wonders so much that sometimes it puts me in a fog.
Through this whole experience I have learned so much and gained a better understanding of who I am and what my purpose in life may be. My priorities and goals have shifted; I have matured in so many various aspects.
I can feel it in my heart and soul. 2011 WILL be a better year all around. :-)
Monday, January 3, 2011
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